Sunday try to be nice November 15, 2016

Wow my morning has been very upsetting! I sure don't care for ex's I was try to be nice and hang out but that did not go well. I was going to check out other church but that was a no go. God had other plans. But basic this ex accused me of what her daughter which I find fun it a Sunday and she has school tomorrow. Was the first lie. Then my step son lie to me also. One of my pet peeve's is be deceit and lies to is a no go! Thankful I came to church to pray for this lady and her kids. After church I came home to hear more stuff that was said and I just let it go. Shortly after I went to Walmart to look for dog food which they didn't even have but I did get dinner. Dinner consist of corn beef, cabbage, sweet yellow onion, red small potatoes, three large carrots and I cooked it in a beer broth. Having bread with it. After I got it prepared I left it in the crock-pot to cook still haven't had it yet and basically went off towards Portland to drive Carolann to go to Barnes and Noble's bookstore so she can get some books she ended up with two books and because she had a little bit extra we decided because Barnes & Noble hooked to Starbucks she got a peppermint hot chocolate and I got a chi soy tea. I also stopped in Wilsonville on the way to Barnes & Noble to pick up some dog food and found out it was cheaper than what Walmart sells it for. Got home and now I am relaxing and waiting for dinner to be done. Carolann went to bed early after eat her vegan dinner from taco bell. Over all even thought the day start not so great am still pretty happy that this day over and a new one begins.

November 14, 2015

Today started off early had to go to the Santa clause foundation to sign up our family to try to get some gifts then I came home to relax a little bit and had to take our dog Coco into the vet to have her ears checked again she still has a ear infection in her right ear that we're still taking care of. Then shortly after coming home from the vet around 6 o'clock me Carolann and Jonathan all went out to Arctic Circle for dinner and then off to Carolann's play salsh concert. Come home around 9 o'clock and get a call from my best friend Claries to hang out so I did and we went and hang out at Kohl's and I got a new pair of boots, a new tank top with a overshirts a new pair pajamas that are purple and I absolutely love them I also got a dress that was originally $65 and I got it for $19.50 and I love the dress because it's a dress that can be turned both ways so what I love about it is it's my favorite color on one side all purple and then on the other side is my other favorite color and it has a pattern and it's black and I absolutely love it and I love how it feels on my skin. I also got me a cuddl duds scarf and hat and it feel great to keep my head warm and it's my first scarf I've ever bought  for my self. So over all the day went really well. Only real down side is Bruce is so sick but hopeful he get better! It was also good to see Jonathan. 

Update and mother rant

Hi my name is Penny,
If your here it could be for the first time if not you know I was married for about 10 years to a wonderful man. Well my hole life changed in June of 2010 when my husband died and a new world was throw at me. It not been easy the past 5 years but am on a new path in life and have start to slow heal. To update my old blogger friends and for the new people. I am now going to college a dream I never thought I would do. I am get married in July of 2016 to a other wonderful man that has help me heal show me so much and has compassion for my past life. No my life is not perfect I struggle with it ever day! But am a fighter and I love my new journey in life. I have one step daughter that I have't seen since 2009 except for a few minutes when she finally what to see her sister.  I have my own baby girl that just turn 16. Then I have 3 future step children that I love more then anything. I'll be talk a lot about be a biological parent and a non-biological parent and the challenges I have to face in and out. I am also a parent to one child that is Bi and deal with that also. Little about me I'm 36 now I been with my new partner in crime for almost 3 years. Have been deal with 2 ex's of my past partner and my new one. I swear there either very jealous of me or they don't see eye to eye with me. I have try my best to keep the peace but there time I just what to ripe there head off and show them what there doing to there own kids!!!! I grew up in a blend family and I have see what a blend family like. But some mothers need to open there eyes and let other people in. When you have a parent tell you "Technically .... Does not have joint custody or sole custody, They only visit" is a fuck call out. You are basic say all I need you for was money and the kids don't matter! Really these women to grow up! When I have seen noting but try to be there for there kids from have them over day in and out take them to school proved food for them and medical care love and go to as many parent school functions as possible. Spend out of pocket even more money drive them place and make sure they have all there basic needs met. But all they what was just money. Then when the step parent step in because there not get there care they get jealous of them for caring. I rather have my child care for by many people then just one. I may not be the perfect parent but when biological parents throw in there face you can't do this because your not blood is bull shit. It take a town to raise one child let alone more then one! I can go on and on about this two mothers I know and there so different in night and day but women I try to come friends with but all they do is close off. I am a parent that believe you need everyone to make a happy family even if the ex's don't see eye to eye. Basic shut your mouth and be there for the kids and when the event is over go your way and they will go theirs. Show your kids you can be there. I am done rant for now! But you hopeful see me post again more! Love, Penny