Update and mother rant

Hi my name is Penny,
If your here it could be for the first time if not you know I was married for about 10 years to a wonderful man. Well my hole life changed in June of 2010 when my husband died and a new world was throw at me. It not been easy the past 5 years but am on a new path in life and have start to slow heal. To update my old blogger friends and for the new people. I am now going to college a dream I never thought I would do. I am get married in July of 2016 to a other wonderful man that has help me heal show me so much and has compassion for my past life. No my life is not perfect I struggle with it ever day! But am a fighter and I love my new journey in life. I have one step daughter that I have't seen since 2009 except for a few minutes when she finally what to see her sister.  I have my own baby girl that just turn 16. Then I have 3 future step children that I love more then anything. I'll be talk a lot about be a biological parent and a non-biological parent and the challenges I have to face in and out. I am also a parent to one child that is Bi and deal with that also. Little about me I'm 36 now I been with my new partner in crime for almost 3 years. Have been deal with 2 ex's of my past partner and my new one. I swear there either very jealous of me or they don't see eye to eye with me. I have try my best to keep the peace but there time I just what to ripe there head off and show them what there doing to there own kids!!!! I grew up in a blend family and I have see what a blend family like. But some mothers need to open there eyes and let other people in. When you have a parent tell you "Technically .... Does not have joint custody or sole custody, They only visit" is a fuck call out. You are basic say all I need you for was money and the kids don't matter! Really these women to grow up! When I have seen noting but try to be there for there kids from have them over day in and out take them to school proved food for them and medical care love and go to as many parent school functions as possible. Spend out of pocket even more money drive them place and make sure they have all there basic needs met. But all they what was just money. Then when the step parent step in because there not get there care they get jealous of them for caring. I rather have my child care for by many people then just one. I may not be the perfect parent but when biological parents throw in there face you can't do this because your not blood is bull shit. It take a town to raise one child let alone more then one! I can go on and on about this two mothers I know and there so different in night and day but women I try to come friends with but all they do is close off. I am a parent that believe you need everyone to make a happy family even if the ex's don't see eye to eye. Basic shut your mouth and be there for the kids and when the event is over go your way and they will go theirs. Show your kids you can be there. I am done rant for now! But you hopeful see me post again more! Love, Penny